Hav you ever been..

have you ever been wanting to get yourself at the cool beach, alone?
have you ever been wondered for thing you should not wonder?
have you ever been waiting so long for something that NEVER come to your life?
have you ever been getting yourself so deep sad and your heart cries softly?

i shouldnt write this. this pain and wonders which never disappear on my brain come up over and over again.
the things that you never find out what it is.
i wanna scream. i sometimes also want to cry.
but my tears won't tear the water down.
i am just a superhuman who have a very strong heart, i wish.
lately i surrounded by things that made me just mre mature and there's always lesson i learned.

people changes. i dnnt wnt 2 use my ego for this.
but its weird when your besties who always laugh loudly behind you slowly gone.
its weird when you try to have a nrmal chat with them, they always talkin bout their boo.
what shoulda do?